the twilight

To make clear of my title of the day so let me tell you this. 

First, I have just finished reading the Twilight today, its first novel, yeah lame, even though I was like what, had borrowed the book from a friend four years ago and the book was stolen and I had bought another new one for her, and then last year I had bought a complete set of Twilight Saga especially for myself but up until early this morning, I had no interest to read them all. Well, I did only the first ten pages of it and I never thought I gonna really finish them. So well yeah after the miracle, I thought it was not so bad. And I think I gonna catch the second book anyway. Let just leave it at that haha.

Secondly, mom had this sudden obsession of twilighting the moment ahah I mean, not really obsession but in a way that urge us to befriend with the golden hour. Ahhhhh what I mean is we did a lot of sunrise photographing because she thought it was beautiful. Well to some levels, I agreed to that hues and golden silhouettes you wont get during daylight are highly precious, or even in Norwegian Woods, Murakami left me feeling on how the everyday sunrise supposedly indicate the significance of your own rise on this very day and it means hope, but whatever, my skills are the limits. You know how your limits can sometimes take you so low.

So the gabbling ended there and heres the first photo of sunrise I've had.

7.26 am. Somewhere in Kinabalu. Ecewah. Kinabalu ada laut ke adik oi.  It was 12.12.2012 and we were restless so our day began with this. Happy Triple Twelve! Belated though. Aku harap ini adalah Kinabalu tapi its just another everyday mount or hill I'd never love.  

6.55 am .Yang ni pulak, second trial dekat Paris. Ecewah. Harapan la sangat. sejak bila aku pegi Pawis. Taken on 13.12.2012.

6.57 am. Kembar lambat dua saat yang lagi tinggi dan lagi slim dari gambo kat atas. Rona cahaya Parisnya sudah hilang ekekek.

7.14 am. 13.12.2012. Exactly the same venue as above photo, where the sun was nowhere to find. Tapi bersyukurlah sekurang-kurangnya ko masih dikurniakan langit meluas. *wink* If anyone nak jadikan ni cover novel silakan ahaha.

7.23 am. 13.12.2012. Sapa kata matahari tadak?! Ni haaa baru nak muncul. Lambatnya awak datang kitorang tunggu bejanggut!  Dan gambarnya sangat horribel.

And thats it. Saya nak ambik gambar lagi tapi bahaya sebab tadak UV Filter. Sebab orang kata dari mata turun ke hati. Pfft kaitan! XD

to the best of friend

Almost everyday after I woke up in the morning I would settle myself for a cup of hot chocolate drink. The hotness of the liquid then would spread its warmth all over my body just as soon as I sipped it. Within His willing it boost up my alertness in an instant. And almost every time it happen the image of a soul I'd truly acknowledge would appear.

So far as I concerned I'm the only one who had this chocolatey milk drink because all of the members in my house have their own favourite cup. Abah prefer his no sugar drink, most likely is Nescafe. Me, I'm a bit shy to say this, it figures no maturity and no elegance at all, but anyway I'd regularly had the Dutch Lady Chocolate drink while the rest basically like the all time favourite Milo; although they all bear the same brown-liquid titles. And thats the end of the story of my family and the drinks range, which of course, is not my main concern.

What I've been doing really is, I am just introducing you the Dutch Lady drink I've favoured! And to the one who had first introduced me to it, and then had give me the whole packet for free...... THANK YOU! It was funny though, among all the gifts I got from everyone around me, there is this one milk powder so unexpectedly there yet I think I'm really enjoying it. Ha. ha.

And whats more special is, today is her birthday! So to the all grown-up Nurul Aina Zainal Abidin, Happy birthday! 

Usually in a time like this we would have conquered the widest and largest room available there in the hostel, either studying or not. And I would miss the glimpse of two bantal in the locker, well three actually, one is the  keras one and a very lembut one, and not to mention the kepala-hello-kitty-with-yellow-rabbit-ear one. Musolla tu dah macam tak cantik kalau tak ada meja merah dengan meja besar gambar langit dengan rumah orang. Ahahaha bestnya tidur kat situ, makan banyak solat awal tidur lambat bangun awal sangat. Ahhhh the benefit I hardly cant get while being at home. T_T

So Aina as you see I dont have anything to give. But thank you for being my real friend even though our friendship had just really begun, for like two months? Ahaha yeah albeit we used to walk to the school like everyday because we wore the same prefect uniform, but we werent so close at that time, arent we? But today the sun is shining bright, and the clouds that are usually hiding it are now nowhere in sight, as if Mother Nature herself knew this was a very special day, so I guess today must be your birthday! Well then I should give a lengthy wish; sebab aku tak pernah wish ko kan. 

Dedicated to a girl I barely know but had been my best friend for ever hehe : Ehem. ehem. Dearest Aina, thank you for being so kind and so generous through thick and thin. I seriously mean that. Aku rasa macam sekejap sangat aku kenal kau tapi sumpah best woha hiperbola di situ. Hmm cakap pasal bola ni tak best pulak. Tapi aina jangan baik sangat karang orang pijak, kena garang sikit macam aku hehe jk. But being seventeen is surely wonderful enough, once in a lifetime, and of course I am missing all our memories back in school (and once in Bandar Kajang). And forget not to thank Allah for He keeps you alive until this very day. Above all thank you for being a good friend of mine ;) 

Dah tu je, not so lengthy as I predicted.

Life goes on and people change. But I hope our friendship will remain the same.

Take a very good care of yourself and Allah will bless you. Amin.

A wish for lots of birthday fun.

Albeit a bit behind time it was done. 
Hoping that all your wishes comes true,

and your birthday cake is as sweet as you!

Last but not last sangat, nah kad beday!

*p/s: Kau terima kan wish yang masuk lambat sikit ni, tak banyak masa free tadi aku buat header aku haaha cantik tak? Panjang kot post!

The ultimate shutter

Hi there! Yep! Been posting again!

Few months ago I was too fond of digital slr camera, you know how I am not the only one. Even if I'd already own the pink Samsung i8 compact but I never felt it cater my needs. If only it hadnt been a surprise from my parents I swear I would never have it. Just like thousands of other kids who - too - I believed had begged hard for it. And now I had a sense of wanting a new one because mine, is not as competent as yours. 

Well when I look deep down, to some intuitive level, all this blissful materials are just keeping us greedy.  We keep looking forward for the sensations we dont own. We want more. More. More. More. Why it seems like there is no stop to this? Or had we turn blind for what we have. 

The problem for us is not are our desires satisfied or not. The problem is how do we know what we desire. In that case you'll never satisfy yourself till death. So basically thats how you can get enough. The first way is to continue to accumulate more and more. Or another way, desire less. 

Well if you know well the first path, that was how money became our king.

I hate how it divided us into parts. and parts.

Well err btw my main reason coming here is for the photos. Completely the wrong way. But since I've mumbled that out for quite a time consumer, so I let it there anyway. These photos are taken in Bangi Tiga (my first time being here) with the rest of adik2 (all eager to learn photographeee) while coached by Bro Azizil Sedek who was too awesome gambar dia I cant beat but I will hahaha lol

A goalkeeper-corner-type of kick hahah not really a good shot (my shot i mean)

Kalau bola kat maahad hamidiah terbiar camni jugak, cuma kempis takde angin.

envy our shoes? no? go YES

no studs. no soccer shoes. women can rule the world whaaaaaat?

This is the aforementioned adik-adik

And last but not least, tahdaa! model zon menutup aurat

“Learn to be pleased with everything; with wealth, so far as it makes us beneficial to others; with poverty, for not having much to care for, and with obscurity, for being unenvied." Plutarch, The Greek.

pascamerdeka

terikat dengan jerut
tali sendiri
terpaksa

entah
mahu bebas
tapi sendiri masih kebas


frankly
to me everything is still the same. the air we breathe in. that reddish blue skies. the paranoia. the robots. the dying marines. the trees.

And amidst these distruction there are the unseen children. They are still in terror. Oh how I felt so useless in my position. Stick to the verbal promises. Leaning against luxury. Am I not doing nothing



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