And I am not gonna delete the blog nor change my url. Even with no written records have made me felt like you have missed a huge portion of my adventures!
And while I'm on it right now, I might throw in some new posts as much as I can on what memories I need to archived. And this time around I wanted to tell you about the dinner I had recently.
It was supposed to be a batch dinner. But considering that my batch consists of 336 people and those who attend seem to be actually lesser than half of the amount, so I dont really think the name is appropriate.
Apart from my classmates, most of my friends didnt even go. Lawak ah gak bila fikir balik out of all things, planning for the dinner actually cause quite a commotion. And there I saw a weird pattern of peer influence that affect the whole class participation, and then the next class, and then the next, and on.
And that bring back my memory to when I was lepaking around with some seniors in kmb during their batch dinner night last year, who commented that they actually wanted to / would go, only they did not know why they didn't go in the first place so be it. And that explanation got me like whatttt. The same cycle goes every year. People not going for the sake of not going.
And I find it disturbing because some people appreciate friends dearly and of course hoping that the event will be a smooth success with the presence of each and every single mate in the batch who have had the same struggle as we do. We are all IB fighters. And enjoying that dinner would seem a bit awkward and less meaningful aannnnd somewhat unfulfilled without another contingent of fighters, isnt it?
But that is what I thought initially. Haha panjang gila aku tulis
And then, things got tough and it got me literally broke. Like no joke. And my view changed. I understood how dinner memories is not as valuable as I initially thought. Bila ajk mintak nama aku tak dapat nak join la pulak haha. Padahal semangat je promot semangat perpaduan awal-awal haha. And I started to feel bad towards my friends of whose I promised to spent the night and appreciate the dinner together. Its no harm I dont go anyway, but I'm not telling my girlfriends that.
Later there was this one good friend named Iman who knew my condition. It was just a few days before that dinner, and the registration list was long closed. Dipendekkan cerita, she actually paid for me and make me go for it eventually! She said she know I would enjoy that type of memories and she claimed I would stuck in boredom if I doesn't. I didnt know how to respond properly because I was at lost for words and actions! Like always, she is so naturally nice and kind! Maybe someone would see this as no issue but too me it means a world. Terharu guaaaa. Thanks iman, I realllly appreciate that and will never forget that :)
And so, on 22nd May 2015, the dinner took place on the same date as we finished our FINAL IB EXAM PAPER! Environmental Studies! Yay to no more school!