Saturday, June 17, 2017

SSOA Summer Exhibition 2017

Finally its happening, the annual summer exhibiton in our school. It becomes a highlight in all architecture school across the country to held a summer exhibiton. I missed the exhbition last year because I was already in Malaysia, so this time I kind of excited for this.

And thanks God, I got a job offer to become the SSOA student ambassador for the exhibiton, something I had wanted to be since my first year. Even though this time around my task was simply collecting glasses and registration, but its already a big step for me. I was already more than happy when I received the legendary black SSOA T-shirt.

Earlier this afternoon, employers from many companies came and checked out potential students. And we had opening ceremony at 6.30pm. Had fantastic opportunities talking to many groups of people today, and definitely thats a boost to my soon-to-be-final-year spirit. Hopefully inshaAllah. I am in need of this confidence so much atm.

What remarkable about today was, some questions that were asked to me by the seniors, that I already answered so many times like 'do you love architecture?' or 'how do you find second year?' and one said she asked because second year is basically the hardest of all. The questions were simple, and maybe a common one; but I do feel I have an honest answer about it now.

My relationship with architecture is a love-hate type. Sometimes I want to run away from it, but I know I cant really do that, half of my heart is stuck there. So I tried to overcome this by finding my purpose and position in this field - but then a master student replied to me 'you can never find your position in the architecture field, its complicated'.

But that aside, I also discovered that actually two of my friends are muslim! I am so happy beyond words because I could never tell all this while.





 

Monday, March 13, 2017

Yonex All England 2017

Did you know I now got two blogs? One is this and another one is for my fully malay side, and its on wordpress.

Skip that aside, I got to watch final of Yonex All England today! Big deal about that is because I got to play Dato' Lee Chong Wei plays live! And he won gold!

Also got to see Goh Liu Ying and Chan Peng Soon play double! See I just cant end my words without the exclamation marks! But performance on court aside, I lowkey respect Peng Soon on how he treats his fans because he's just there with us. Malaysian fans were mad chasing our atheletes. Understand how tiring it must have been for them but we got no chance to get close to Dato' Lee Chong Wei and even to take a picture with Goh Liu Ying was a challenge!

I just have massive respect for Chan Peng Soon for what he done shows me that it all takes that little effort to show people you appreciate them, and you hardly forget the feeling of being appreciated :)

Tuesday, November 22, 2016

Self-discovery

Today is one of those days I had to awkwardly hug someone. Because, you know, girls like to hug every time they meet or actually on any random time. Not just to hug her became an issue, I had to explain why I am so not comfortable with hugs, which you know I am so miserable at explaining myself. And bless you this conversation took place in our studio which means everyone can actually hear what we're saying.

I decided to post that on InstaStory today.

I openly wrote on how I am not comfortable with touch and its getting very hard to explain it to people, especially with my best girl friends.

Later I received a private message from eizza suggesting me I should just say 'I have personal space issue', I never think of such term so I googled that out and yes! There's a disorder linked for that issue!

Personal Space Issue.

It all make sense now.

I was so happy not because I have that disorder or anything. But I was so glad there's a term that I can simply use whenever the needs arrive. And part of me is happy to have discovered another character in my personality. Its not major but its interesting because I'm so into that category.

I am always aware of direct touch on me, and by always I mean ALWAYS. Be it from cat, human or any animal. Now I get it why I am not so fond of some animal, because they can touch me whenever.  Now I get it why I cant eat when there's a cat nearby, because at most time the cat will touch me, or worst, jump on my lap.

And my private zone is my castle. I get very uncomfortable when people enter my room. And even now in the UK, my current room is a no-no area to the whole Sheffielders haha. 

Another relatable point of PSI, I hate being in line with someone at my back, which at most time I tried to avoid. In boarding school before, I hardly wait in line for anything. I let other people iron their school uniforms first because I dont like they staring through me. I remember leaving a queue just because the people in the line get so cramped and just recently in Manchester Airport, I let the people behind me to be in front of me just because I can't stand they standing too close to me. 

I spent quite some time reading about this interesting personal space issue over the web. Because I'm surprised how relatable it is.

I leave this one article just for the fun of it :p

Thursday, September 22, 2016

My architecture soulmate

I am in Sarajevo, Bosnia right now. All happy exploring, travelling and all that.

But that was before I realised Joanna left our architecture group and a little later, left me a message: She has already quit architecture.

I was too surprised.

She told me that having decided architecture is not something for her, she is going to pursue animation. And its not in our university, but Sheffield Hallam.

My feelings were scattered all over the places; in between happy that she has figured out something so important for herself, and sad that she's no longer my architecture soulmate.

But of course I'm mostly sad. Sad that my dearest buddy is going away. Sad that she came to this decision alone, that I could not influence her to stay together any more longer. Maybe most importantly sad knowing that my fellow fighter is leaving me to continue my struggle in the architecture madness. 

I know I've got other friends to support each other but we all have that one person who we'll tell our truest feelings without mask. And to me, while I am in Sheffield, that one person is her.

How can I not be sad at this moment. Of course I remember our deep talks, our not-at-all-deep talks, our regular confession on most things, on how messed up we are, on our relief to know we both passed, and those at the very end of last sem - we promised many resolutions for second year. 

We used to complain on many things together and now I would have to complain alone haha.

Only a few days left to second year architecture and now I have to reset my mental again, because I have to admit it. Joanna decision to surrender had screwed up my mood towards architecture if you ask me.