pesta buku, spek dan buku

Aku tak ingat bila kali pertama kitorang mula-mula sekali pergi pesta buku. Rasa macam sejak lahir lagi aku dah ke pwtc tu. Masa kecik rasa macam heaven itu adalah pesta buku. Woha overrrrrr sangat.

Tapi hakikatnya memang kitorang tak pernah miss pesta buku walaupun setahun. Sebab mak aku orang kuat librari kat rumah hoho. 

Masa umur aku lima tahun koleksi kegemaran aku adalah siri hadi, siri salma dengan siri tingkatan satu sampai lima di seri melur. Sampai kalau mak suruh mandi atau panggil makan, aku akan menyorok bawah meja dan baca buku. Teruk gila perangai sampai tak nak mandi haha. Aku sangat susah keluar dari bawah meja tu mengakibatkan aku terpaksa bermata dua dua tahun berikutnya. Mana ada budak masa tu pakai spec darjah satu. 

Aku ingat lagi spec tu lagi bulat dari harry potter punya. Haa ko bayangkanla. Aku malu sangat nak pakai. Masa first time pakai kena gelak dengan classmate satu lili, sekolah pandan indah. Masa aku tingkatan satu sekolah bandar kinrara pulak, time aku jumpa balik divagen classmate aku masa darjah satu, sekali dia bawak gambar aku time darjah satu dengan spec tu. Time tu pun kena gelak lagi. Pft semua ni buku punya pasal.

Tapi sayangnya entah kenapa aku dah stop ber-bookworming masa aku darjah lima. 

Masa tingkatan empat pulak aku check mata, power aku dua ratus, kira maintain ah tu. Tapi sekali, beberapa bulan setelah peraturan light off di asrama dikuatkuasakan, aku check mata lagi di tingkatan lima, power aku dah empat ratos! Fish. Macamana power aku membiak ni. 

Walaupun sepatutnya aku happy sebab sekarang aku ada superpower, lagi hebat dari you ols hahahahahaha tapi aku sedih gila tahu. Rasa macam nak menangis pun ada depan optometri tu.

Kalau tabung simpanan cukup lapan ribu, cita-cita umur dua puluh satu aku nak buat lasik.

By the way, hari ni dah hari ke-empat pesta buku kat pwtc tu. Mak aku datang je dah tiga kali. Kalau boleh mama kata dia nak pergi pesta buku ni tiap-tiap hari haha. 

Some of the cool-looking books of the day. Bought some fixi and stack of old magazines for real cheap yesterday. Dan dua-dua buku tanjung malim tu buku current favourite mak aku yang buat orang gelak terguling-guling.

Best book of the day, Unstuck or in malay is pecahkan kebuntuan hoho. Terbaik dari ladang Institut Terjemahan semestinya. Plus, dapat 40% diskaun kalau korang beli di booth ITBM pukul 10.30 - 11.30 pagi.  #HappyHour. Sangat berbebaloi.

Kenapa best? Sebab banyak aktiviti cool and whatnot.

Kalau korang suka Keri Smith 'wreck this journal' / 'this is not a book', buku ni lebih kurang sama konsep dia.

Oh ya lagi satu.

Fresh dari oven. Mak baru beli tadi. Sangat haruslah mengupload gambar ini hehe. Buku ni kelako.

*P/s: Kerajaan saudi yang kaya-raya berbaik hati bagi naskhah al-Quran free terjemahan inggeris atau melayu kepada anda. Kalau nak ambil jangan segan minta.

Okay setakat tu sahaja. Sedangkan maskot pun bertudung indon, anda bila lagi?

Eheh sekarang ni bukan main banyak aku post haha.

Assalam. Babai adik manis.

Sketch 005: Rokok

*guna mouse.

Satu hari di kelas memandu dah lama dulu,
Seorang perempuan memberanikan diri menegur budak-budak muda
Yang punya rokok sebatang seorang,
Untuk berhenti sekejap.
Berhenti sekadar waktu tu pun cukuplah.
Mana taknya ruang bernafas dah terlalu sempit.
Its not a nice sight either.

Tapi last-last buang air liur semata.

'Best sangat ke merokok?'
'Daripada buang masa tunggu cikgu macam ni, baik la merokok.'
'Lagipun kitorang mana merokok dekat luar sebenarnya, dekat sini je.'

Oh pft.
Aku rasa aku faham kot.
Faktor persekitaran?
Konon macam aktiviti diwaktu senggang kan lagi bagus dari buang masa.
Tapi sayang rokok itu kan fatwanya haram.
Sayangnya sayangnya sayangnya.

Just because to kill the time
You'd exposed yourself to the killing.

*Entahlah aku tak faham kot. Kan lagi best kalau korang telan sekali asap-asap tu.

temuduga sarjana muda sains senibina

Assalamualaikum. So hari ni tajuk menceritakan segala galanya, dah terang lagi bersuluh. Maka aku akan terus cerita.

Masa yang dalam surat 8.30 pagi. Aku bertolak daripada rumah pukul 7.20, sampai UiTM Shah Alam pukul 8.15. Tapi ya rabbi ya karim, interviewee punyalah ramai. Kalau tahun lepas dia buat lain-lain sesi, tapi tahun ni nak senang kot, dia bubuh somorang pukul 8.30 hah ambik. Walaupun ada lima kaunter semuanya, ramai yang tak perasan lagi empat kaunter tu. so almost semua orang, i mean, semua orang yang baru datang main sambung je dekat satu line ni, iaitu line architecture ni la apa lagi. Nak tak nak tu memang line aku yang sepatutnya pun, so beratur la sepanjang tembok china tu. Parah habis.

Ketika beratur aku didatangi Baiti hoho. The only hamidian around I guess. Aku siap pakai baju batch lagi haha siapa budak maahad tak cam memang la. Program AP243 no giliran aku 83, baiti 85. seorang mamat memisahkan kami hoho.

Okay sebelum aku mula melencong, kitorang duduk tunggu untuk ujian melukis pulak. Satu sesi ujian dalam dewan kuliah tu ada seramai 110 calon. So by the time I arrived to the khemah menunggu the first session candidates was already in the lecture hall. Dia tak ikut nombor giliran pun tapi berbekalkan moto first come first serve dengan main redah je. Setelah tiga jam lebih menunggu, akhirnya aku dapat pun masuk ujian melukis tu. Memang time tu sesi yang terakhir pun haha. Pukul 12 tgh.

Ujian lukisan tu lukislah objek-objek yang diberi haha. Aku dah faham sangat masalah tangan aku ni. Masa permulaan and ending nak melukis ni memang tak boleh melukis tangan nervous sejuk dan basah nanti kotor kertas hoho. Tapi siap jugaklah. Buat shading dengan highlight tu yang kena buat study sikit aku rasa. Esp kalau korang ambik course art lagi la.

Satu jam kemudiannya ujian lukisan tamat. Kitorang diasingkan ikut course. Course yang tertera kat tajuk ni paling ramai calonnya. Yang diploma ukur bahan pula tiga orang sahaja walamak. Tapi kitorang diberi break lagi sebab intervviewer pun dah pergi lunch daaa.

Lepas break, kitorang semangat nak ditemuduga dengan nombor giliran digenggaman. Sebab ramai sangat orang kat depan bilik tu, kitorang pun duduk bersepah sementara tunggu nombor dipanggil. Alangkah lukanya hati apabila rupanya nombor giliran tu TAK ADA function pun. Siapa duduk dekat pintu tu dia panggil dulu sobsob. Tapi sebbek aku pergi tanya sekarang dah nombor berapa, kalau tak lagi parah.

Pukul 3.46 petang akhirnya aku disuruh masuk ke dewan tu. Dalam dewan tu ada lebih kurang lima temuduga going on simultaneously. So tak delah nervous sangat sebab bukan asing-asing. Aku dapat panel 3. Baiti panel 2. Ahh, lagi satu aku terharu masa nak masuk tu, ada lagi lebih kurang enam orang depan aku tunggu turn panel lain. Diorang semua cakap goodluck. Bagus kan diorang tu? Terharu aku. Memang menambah keexcitedan aku. (Kesimpulannya bagilah kata2 positif kat orang walaupun kita tak kenal dia, the effect is the bomb you know!)

Bahayanya aku ni kalau dah excited, bahasa aku ni melanggar semua panduan tatabahasa dan etika keformalan hohoho especially perkataan favourite aku iaitu ikr, you know and guys hoho. Walaupun aku dah praktis dengan baiti masa kat luar sana untuk mengelakkan bahasa-bahasa perbualan ni keluar, terkeluar juga akhirnya ketika diinterview. Aku bawa bersama kerja kursus seni tahun lepas, buku sketch manusia (sketch setiap kali sebelum tidur), dengan buku sketch bangunan (baru buat tiga hari lepas). Btw masa inteview aku dalam 10 minit je lebih kurang tapi aku rasa semua soalan yang aku rasa dia akan tanya, semua ada hhaha. Panel aku dua orang dua dua perempuan. 

So interview aku berjalan seperti berikut. Aku tak tulis jawapan aku sangat. Tau je la aku ni kan, banyak cakap. Banyak sangat kena taip haha. The questions are not in exact order, dah tak ingat. short memory span hha.

Tell me about yourself.
This is soalan wajib so I told my name obviously, siblings & parents names, and current status.

What was your father position?

I answered in details.

Have you ever been oversea?

Dengan yakinnya aku jawab; Nope. Never.

Sekali.

But wait, you were born in manchester? (Puan tu angkat kening)
(Alamak aku lupa aku lahir kat sana =.=) I was only born there. Nothing much. Doesnt have any live experience tho. (Rasa macam dah termenipu la pulak.)

So why did you choose architecture?

Aku cakapla pasal diri aku hoho. Nilah masanya untuk masuk bakul angkat sendiri? Haha. I am the type of people who like to create things. I would love to challenge myself to create more complex things, ie the buildings. I believe architecture have the power to change the nation blabla better malaysia. (Haha bila fikir balik exaggerate gila jawapan)

Why UiTM in the first place?

Who doesnt know UiTM in leading our architecture industry?

What other course do you apply?
I chose architecture in all eight options hehe.

Why not UIA?

I have my own reason takleh cakap kuat2 lol but mainly its because UIA isnt that good in term of practicalities, thats what my seniors told me tho.

Whats your second option?
UTM.
Then why not UTM?
Atm UTM doesnt provide architecture course for fresh spm leaver unless you have a diploma first. But the thing is the course is perancangan bandar dan wilayah. Bukan architecture.

You've been telling a lot about architecture all along, as if you really know what architecture is, Tell me what is architecture really. (Ambik kau, pedas ayat)

Nasib baik Baiti ada share makna architecture tadi hoho. To me architecture is a form of art in a more serious manner, engaged with technologies and science blabla. Its not just about creating buildings, but its about creating space that people enjoy. Sebabnya to make people happy is vital.

So, you are from smka maahad hamidiah? Why you didn't further your studies in islamic field, ie syariah?

You cant expect everyone from religious school to attend syariah courses? Bla bla. Everyone have their own responsibilities. God put us in our own unique paths. So I think this is it, my path. (I shud have mention fard kifayah but I cant recalled the phrase at that time)

So you think base on your knowledge from this maahad, you can apply the knowledge in archi then? (Aku tak ingat dah soalan dia macammana exactly, tapi lebih kurang ah)

(Aku dah start rasa cuak sikit dah time ni sebab ingatkan dia test soalan agama pulak) Well the fact that religion is something unseparable from everything we do, therefore this issue shouldnt be such a problem. We can relate anything into religions, we can relate religions with anything. But at least the idea of propagating the religion more into architecture is here though. (Menjawab ke ni entahlah.)

How do you sketch this things? Design sendiri ke. (Pointing to an old museum in my sketchbook)
Ahhh. Hehe internet of course. 

Is there any particular building you want to tell us?

(Time ni otak dah mula serabut.) Locally or internationally? Hmmm theres too many building to talk about. (Stuck jap) Well the most famous hotel in the world, I guess everyone know it by now, but anyway, its one of my favourites. Burj Al Arab. The only 7star hotel blabla. (Tulah saja2 baca semalam, terkeluar yang tu pulak. padahal yang dah preparenya nak cakap pasal menara pucuk rebung dengan tabung haji tu saja simple.)

What do you think of marina bay?

(OMG APE TUUUUUU) Er the one in singapore right?

Nodded.

(OMGGGGG STRIKE. Aku tak ingat sangat, tapi samar-samar.) Ah its awesome, specatular, stand out from the rest. Tiba-tiba aku cakap pasal Malaysia pun boleh buat benda yang sama bla bla bla.

Orang tanya pasal singapore dia cakap pasal malaysia.

(Ehhh ulfah2 asal ko banyak sangat cakap. Aku takut sikit aku terlebih cakap interviewer yang second tu psycho sikit. Tapi overall dua-dua baik peramah saje)

Have you ever been there?

Nope. Seen the photos only. (Logo eden soalan marina bay dah habis haha.)

Yeah thats all, my interview ended and I was beaming like hell hahahaha. Ive done my best. Tunggu sajalah resultnya. It was joyful enough but everything is in His will. *Eh aku tulis sekali jawapan aku hha.

Bayangkan pukul 8 menunggu sampai pukul 4. Pergh heaven ke.

So seandainya aku diberi peluang untuk ditemuduga untuk ini lagi (aka tips untuk orang lain):

-Datang awal! OMG kalau aku tahu seramai ini umat manusia yang akan datang interview pukul 8.30 ni, aku datang pukul 7. Senang. Tengahari dah boleh habis dah. Silap-silap pukul 10 pun dia dah selesai.

-Pastikan salinan dokumen disahkan. Ramai parents kehulu-hilir nak dapatkan pengesahan tadi. Last2 sebab ramai sangat takde pengesahan, diorang pun terima jela kali ni.

-Pensel dan pemadam dalam genggaman. just jangan tercicir hoho.

-Buatlah shading dengan highlight time ujian lukisan. Pihak UiTM tak suruh pun. Tapi ada segelintir orang siap cepat sangat, plus takde dua benda tu. Baru dua puluh minit dah lepak. Jeles pulak orang sebelah nanti tengok korang awal sangat siap. Macam kes aku.

-Bawak buku semaikan amalan membaca atau anything untuk mengelakkan kebosanan tahap dewa.

-Research pasal archi. obviously ada markah untuk pengetahuan kursus, pengetahuan am, dan pengetahuan seni bina.

-Senyum! sebab senyum ni berjangkit. ada virus positif. confirm interviewer korang akan senyum kalau kau senyum gak, kalau tak nampak dia senyum, dia senyum dalam hati la tu ;)

-Kalau boleh buat design portfolio yang gempak. *Macam baiti sebab lukisan dia gempak gillalos, interviewer dia tanya tiga soalan saja (safe tenaga masa dan air liur) dan kasik markah seratus beserta komen 'very high recommendation' daebaakkk. Bagai bulan jatuh ke riba. Seronoklah baiti, aku tak dapat nak usha markah aku dia sorok T_T

-Jangan lupa tawakkal kepada tak lain tak bukan.

Ada rezeki Allah dimana-mana.

Jumpa lagi. Dah tu je. Sekian.

Sekarang apa kata korang senyum kat random stranger yangkorang jumpa pasni.
Sama gender la selamat sikit.
Dan tengok respon dia.

Ah, heaven.


*p/s: Result dah keluar. Alhamdulillah aku dapat dekat UiTM Seri Iskandar. Tetapi masuknya bulan 9 nanti. Hah nampak tak betapa lambaaaaaaaaaaaatnya masuk nak tunggu budak2 lain. Boleh tidoq empat bulan ni. Hehe.

mahrajan kawad kaki

Assalamualaikum. Bertitik tolak dari post ini. I did came to maahad yesterday. I don't know what other people think about the open day. But personally the only x factor was the people. My god I love everyone (tears)  too bad dapat jumpa sekejap sangat. Not that I said it was boring, but at least I'm being honest. Btw I gonna write the down side of it. If you dont bother to read it so dont.

It would be much more exciting, much more meaningful if it was properly planned. Ironinya ramai mengadu terlalu semput bernafas 7 hari seminggu terlalu kerap. Even so, what if you gather your strength and focus on what you do best?

Yang penting perancangannya. Tak kisahlah apa program pun. Bukan apa aku tak tahan tengok orang macam melepaskan batuk di tangga. Aku tak taula peribahasa mana yang serasi dengan pendapat aku ni. Banyak sangat program tapi kurang keberhasilannya. Takpun, jack of all trades, master of none. Maksud aku, at least kite kena la tahu kenapa kita buat benda tu, bersebab la sikit. Bukan sekadar buat kasik pack jadual.

I came on Sunday, the last day, by the time the organizers seemed pretty exhausted. Ada gerai yang dah bungkus dah pun. Boleh tahan banyak aktiviti yang berlansung. Aku tengok dari jauh pun dah semput.

Rumah hantu ada juga. Cliche dah rumah hantu kat event macam ni. But people go for it, sebab  ni sekolah agama kot, teringin jugak nak tengok macamana version rumah hantu islamik. Hoho. But now that people already how scary la sangat it is, apa kata tahun depan kita buat something rare. Tak perlu terikut orang lain. Most some people look forward to come and see how differ a sekolah agama is. Or is it just the same as other school? 

So use this chance to show it to everyone. Apatah lagi hari terbuka ni sesiapa random stranger je boleh datang. You have no idea how the people who came to this open day is really various. Mungkin ada mak seri dato datin menteri or orang yang sangat menyanjung maahad, who knows. Yang penting semua orang ada impression tersendiri. And this kind of event is one of the proves to give them the answer. If you wanna break the social stigma, here's the opportunity. So plan it the way how you want other people think about maahad.

Apa perlunya bilik pengantin? Adakah sangat penting sampai ada tiga lagi? Meskipun tujuan dia untuk kutip dana, student jugak yang keluarkan duit sendiri untuk buat bilik tu. Who knows how much, aku bersimpati sebab semua ni tak tercatit dalam buku tiga lima. Aku pernah merasa betapa hibanya rasa terpaksa mengorek duit sendiri kerana tiada bajet diberi. Better yet, sila elakkan pembaziran wang. Maka, adalah seronok jika fokus pada satu bilik yang orang akan datang dan jayakan. Buatlah future dorm tahun 2053 ke, bilik idamanku ke, or etc. as long as the student can feel they're linked to it. 

And maybe after, this the empty bare field next to the marching site can also be used for the booths. Booth tu boleh divariasikan lagi. Kalau sorang jual ayam jangan semua jual ayam gamaknya. Seronok juga kalau ada game. Anything, yang boleh diislamisasikan pun gempak. Yeah kalau panggil alumni yang dah giat ada label sendiri, mantap. Bila buat kat padang tepi tu I think more people can watch the marching going on. Paling penting, nampak more lively sikit dekat dataran pengetua tu.

But on the up side, the idea of this open day is so brilliant. What with the movies night, the qasidah and all. Bunyinya je dah best sangat, tinggal nak buat betul-betul kasik impak je. No doubt many people were happy to regain connections from those they've long missed. Me too, am happy! And as to students, I bet they learnt a lot of skill of entrepreneurship. And the school gained some more profits obviously, with that maka tercapailah misinya. Kalau niat nak belajar memang banyak sangat yang boleh dapat.

Aku nak selit sikit, sensitif pulak aku bila tengok orang menangis lepas kawad tu. Lepas dia umum keputusan tu pulak, ada pulak sorang adik krs menangis kat aku sebab katanya, 'sorry akak, Krs dapat no 4 je.' 'Bila Krs nak menang asyik kat bawah je.' Sentap aku dengar. I really have no idea how much serious they  take this kawad matter. No worries no tears adik. If we want to rise to the top then we have to crawl out right from this bottom. InsyaAllah kalau awak betul-betul nak, Allah akan kasi, the moment will come.

I'm writing this in the hope adik-adik can see the room of improvement. Banyak lagi benda yang boleh diperbaiki, its a good job tho! Things are getting better. Exam pula menanti.

And here's some notable conversation throughout the day, I dont bother to put their name. Even the letters are completely random.

A: Wow, sampai tiga hari ek open day? (I ask this to almost everyone saja nak tengok reaction)

B: Nak buat macamana kak, terpaksa.

(Eh terpaksa tiga hari? Say who? )

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C: Tapi kenapa bilik pengantin?

D: Entah. Cikgu yang suruh. Kitorang buat je.

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F(orm one): Akak, saya tengok banyak muka akak dalam mustaqim tahun lepas. Akak ni apa sebenarnya?

G: Apa awak fikir? Akak manusia jugak la.

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J: Malam semalam event apa?

K: Qasidah.

J: Cool gila.

K: Alah tak de pape pun. Ada budak kecik je ramai.
J: Tak de pape?
K: Tak de pape pun.

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L: Kenapa sekarang pasang al-Quran pulak?

M: Dah lepas azan kak.

L: (Oh begitu)

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See. Something is wrong here.
In need to mend that.
We all, indeed.
Need to realize what is wrong.

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And hah, sekarang part gambar pula. Maaf tak mampu nak upload kat fb kamera aku banyak gambar orang nanti attractive sangat haha.

Nadrah dengan Endang. Sweet tak? Sweet kan? Tak kira. Sweet jugak.

Nadrah dengan Mustaqim. Eh.

 Wa tengah seronok main. Aku tak nak komen pape.

Cua. Pronounce as chu-a. Haha saje letak caption nama.

Pah dengan Eeeee. Terharu aku. Daripada form one kot.

Best booth ni. Untunglah ada mimi dengan Farhah. Budak ni dah power berbusiness.

Cici pula. Obviously sebelah tu aku. 

Syafiqah and Atie. Gambar ni diambil atas dasar kononnya aku tak pernah ambik gambar diorang. KFine --'

Nawhen and madi.

Aku sedih sikit sebab tak dapat cakap lansung dengan diorang ni. My sister took this photo btw thats why.

Eh semua senior ni dulu KPO okay. bukan kpop.

Elok-elok nama sedap orang panggil aton, tapi namanya makin parah. Pitek.

Wahida, Syakeyra cewah dengan Suraya. Pelik ke aku sebut nama sorang-sorang as caption? Aku dah tak ingat nama baju hijau tu tapi.

Merekalah kawan paling baik aku. Tak usah ditulis namanya, aku akan ingat sampai bila-bila

 Best kan.

Adik kecil itu menarik perhatian aku.

KK terbaik semestinya.

Tahniah BOM! ba.  Nak tau nombor berapa tengok gambar bawah.

Nadrah pink. Ana biru pink. Aku biru hohoho. Matching tak? Haha nak jugak bermatching-matchingan.

Dah habis. Ada lagi gambar tapi dah lewat sangat ni. So terpaksalah setakat ini.

X: So kesimpulannya, budak maahad pakai tudung labuh waktu sekolah je?

Y:  (erk)....

Pergh ke situ pula kesimpulan dia. Nak buat macam mana. Lain orang, lain kesimpulannya.

Janji, gunalah akal kamu untuk berfikir.

.

Two months ago I was invited to an event dated 20 April 2013. Which explain one of why I really look forward to april. Getting involve with new people, it was pretty exciting. That supposedly I was in Mont Kiara today. 

But I hate being racist. And I hate social stigma. I have experienced this more than three times yet no one tell me why. Whats wrong having religious school background in your community. pft. Or at least tell me what do you expect from us.

I wont let you think the societal norm bring me down. 

Count me in. -Red

open days smka mh

Assalam guys! Since its already thursday, I decided to put up the poster for the event today! This weekend we have three subsequent open day in smka maahad hamidiah! Hah ambik kau, bukan sehari je tahu ;D They have lots of activities going on but regardless, just chilling around is fun enough. Its cool to meet up, and the ukhuwah fillah reunite! Berpenat-lelah adik-adik kita menerbukakan maahad. So yep hamidians, are you coming home? 

(Cewah)

This is the so last minute flyer that was initially created as the official. Atm I was supposed to channel this to the authorities last week bagai nak mati, I swear it was the worst server connection I ever had. The file pending failed like for ever but its okay, I enjoyed doing it nonetheless.

Btw guys, kalau tak ada kerja jom datang santai kat maahad hamidiah kajang minggu ni! Bila lagi boleh buat muka tak malu chill kat sekolah orang haha. Sekolah agama lagi tu sayangku XD Its real easy to reach maahad, its just next to SILK highway. betul-betul sebelah Country Height. But even if you get lost, just ask me or whoever hamidians your way around. Lets show some supports and share some love  :)

281 - pesan pak samad

"Dalam librari
aku tersengguk. 

Seorang tua
tersenyum menegur:
tak guna
membuka buku
menutup mata.
Kan elok
menutup buku
membuka mata?" 

Mulai esoknya
dalam librari
ku tak pernah
tersengguk lagi
walau orang tua
sudah lama
tidak kusua 

Dalam librari
kini ku membaca,
mataku sering
ke kerusi orang tua
yang sudah tiada."
                                     - Pak Samad.

april in a week

Thank god I'm still breathing. 

This entire week has been so hectic and tiring. yet unfortunately, there was my mood swings too. As in right now. I think Im so messed up. And I need to reach out somewhere. But then again I didnt, therefore I am, stilll. :/ 

But anyway. 

The last thing I can recall on past events is the young writers award in mariott. I'm pretty much enjoying myself there. The theme is the hobbit of the shire! Something I never know before haha but its cool though! And costumes! I wanna test my sewing ability so I handmaded my cloak. But at the end all I used is jahitan jelujur kasar hahaha. Anyway its great to see so many awesome people around. Seeing fearless kids conquering the stage, I felt encouraged to strive for my life with the things I enjoy. People appreciate you with the thing you do, not the thing you didnt. I believe all this a by-product, they wont come unless you are not expecting it. So hah, my conclusion; do not live your life to please anyone, believe me it will tire you up. There you go. It isn't really related i think haha. but it is relevant XD

People ask me if I am a writer, and I said no. lol. but true. I can only write for myself. I would rather say a learner. Up until today, I still find its a hard work to translate my thoughts into words in an exact meaning. There you go, kudos to all authors in the world! Even the reason why I created this blog in the first place is merely to practise my english and help me become more clarified. I dont know if that had worked lol but my reasons has changed now. Its great enough to share even a portion of my thought to anyone.

Sabrina is awesome though. I'm glad that I was invited. T_T And as expected Amir won an award for his articles. I'm so happy for them I can't describe this. But whatever it is, as long as you enjoy the thing you do, it doesn't matter whether you get the award or not. In another words, look forward to your awards in the hereafter. and that is the ultimate achievement of any human being ever.

And before I ramble too much, I went to kelantan again, this remind me how freaking excited I was when I started travel alone back before. I took lots of photos and talk to almost all strangers I met. But the feeling was gone now that I didn't even bring my camera along, let alone talking to anyone. It was raining most of the time. Both my pergi and balik bus were delayed for an hour or more (which frustrate me even more). I didnt even see any rainbow. I wish I'd known a friend that enjoy traveling. I guess it would not only steer you away from any unwanted sadness, it must have been much more fun obviously. Seems like I need to find new motives for a trip ever again haha. and sidenote, I need to buy a traveler backpack after this haha I look so out of place with my (yellow) school bag.

And finally, uniten open debate! The fee per person merely is quite mahal for me but surprisingly I did agreed to enter it, tho im full of wax. It was intended for me to help the juniors but eventually it was them who helped me. They moved me. Now that I'm no longer a school kid, the feeling in debating is so different. I started to feel people really take into account your point of view. And after four years joining debate, I think I've found my true reason to keep me on this track. I may not continue debating in the future, but im not deleting it either. fakhry, saddiq, arinah and syarif. They may not know but the reasons are through them. 

But I need to be honest that I, again, frustrate myself there. Apart from aforementioned emotionally unstable, I'm getting more awkward with people. I cant blame maahad for this i know right. but too bad I cant help it. but then again, I am feeling that is completely okay. Haha. And regarding the debate, its all a good debate. Overall two out of our four teams broke to octos. We had two debates with mislead cases,  and lost one round for fluency manner haha but we had fun. I dont blame a bad adjudication here haha. And learnt a lot. I met Maxx, a former friend of my sister, whom i truly respect, and read sickly a  lot. I realized im really lacking in SQ so I really see the dire to read a lot after this. Maxx is really a think tank! He's one of the adj core. Which explains why the motions are all real good! But too bad he adj me during the worst debate i've ever had, which is a politic debate, and the down side, he recognized me even before the debate started. Following are the motions.

ROUND 1: THBT INDIVIDUALS WHO FAIL TO APPEAR IN COURT FOR CRIMES AGAINST HUMANITY SHOULD BE ASSASSINATED 

ROUND 2: THB IN THE ABSOLUTE RIGHT TO SECEDE. 

ROUND 3: THBT JOURNALISM SHOULD ABANDON ITS STANCE OF BEING “NON-INTERVENTIONIST” WHEN COVERING ATROCITIES. 

ROUND 4: THBT PEOPLE WHO HAVE BEEN DENIED THE RIGHT OF STATEHOOD BY THE INTERNATIONAL COMMUNITY SHOULD BE GIVEN THE RIGHT TO ABODE IN ANY NATION OF THEIR CHOICE.  

ROUND 5: ASSUMING THE DUPLICATION/REPLICATION OF PAIN WAS POSSIBLE, THW ADMINISTER PAIN TO CONVICTS IN PROPORTION TO THE CRIMES THEY HAVE COMMITTED. 

OCTOS: IN THIS MODERN ERA, THBT STATES SHOULD RECOGNIZE THE CONSENT OF MINORS.  

QUARTERS: THBT THE UNITED STATES SHOULD EXTEND ITS ANTISEMITISM LAWS TO ISLAMOPHOBIA. 

SEMIS: THBT MORAL RELATIVISM IS AN OBSTRUCTION TO PEACE. 

FINALS: THBT POST MORTEM, YOUR BODY BELONGS TO SCIENCE. 

The motion itself require much understanding before we talk about the issue. As for us the amateur we spent half of the prep just for that haha. And good thing we had a sleepover in syakirahs house! We did maggie fiesta and played true or lie and slept at 3am and come back to debate when its morning. But being in our debate community is real fun and now I'm back to face my reality, Im struggling to stay positive. Sigh.

I end the post with our lovely mates!

one day everyone will leave you

"Sun, don't go!"   

I was awake at last. 

"No, go I must, they're calling me."  

"Who are they?"

 Rising he said "Some day you'll know."  

"They're calling to you too."   

                               Darkly he rose.

                                                                                              -Frank O'Hara (A True Account of Talking to the Sun)

opIsrael hackers strike!

Long ago my brother told me about the mission I dont think gonna shoot the moon at first. A group of hackers which famously known, Anonymous gonna launch a massive electronic battle in an attempt to "wipe Israel off the map of the Internet". Just as how they steal our land.

And the days has come now. It was real surprised to see them launching the Operation Israel officially yesterday.  I am amazed (I am easily amazed obviously) to see this another progress of protest, an act of really well coordinated defiance from many hackers around the world! That sadly I wish i was part of them. I wish I could help!

Apart from numerous Israel websites defaced, it was stated that Jewish had lost some $2 billion as a result of the attack. As if there wasnt any real damages(?) [1]

I was thinking whether this sort of cyber attack is that effective at first. But i think it is clear that they arent intending to steal secret infos of israel and whatnot but Anonymous are addressing people to aware of this issue. Which played so well. I really hope more people, and my friends are listening to this too. 

This is what Anonymous wrote (quite long) for the public.

This is for Palestine, Ramallah, West Bank, Gaza, This is for the child that is searching for an answer, I wish I could take your tears and replace them with laughter, Long live Palestine, Long live Gaza! While we listen to tunes, made by ignorant fools, Israel blocked the UN from delivering food, They'll bring in the troops and you won't even glimpse at the news, They make money of the products that we are quick to consume, It's not simply a question of differing views, Forget emotions, this is fact, what I spit is the truth, Makes no difference if you're a Christian or if you're a Jew, They are just people living in different conditions to you, They still die when you bomb their schools, mosques and hospitals, It is not because of rockets, please god can you stop it all, I'm not related to the strangers on the TV, But I relate because those faces could have been me, Words can never ever explain the raw tragedy, It's not a war they're just murdering more rapidly, We are automatically supporting pure savagery, Imagine how you'd feel if it was your family, This is for Palestine, Ramallah, West Bank, Gaza, This is for the child that is searching for an answer, I wish I could take your tears and replace them with laughter, Long live Palestine, Long live Gaza, Palestine remains in my heart forever, We stand for peace, in times of war we shan't surrender, Remember, it didn't start in that dark December, Every coin is a bullet, if you're Mark's and Spencer, And when your sipping Coca-Cola, That's another pistol in the holster of a soulless soldier, You say you know about the Zionist lobby, But you put money in their pocket when you're buying their coffee, Talking about revolution, sitting in Starbucks, The fact is that's the type of thinking I can't trust, Let alone even start to respect, Before you talk learn the meaning of that scarf on your neck, Forget Nestle, Obama promised Israel 30 billion over the nextdecade, They're trigger happy and they're crazy, Think about that when you're putting Huggies nappies on your baby, This is for Palestine, Ramallah, West Bank, Gaza, This is for the child that is searching for an answer, I wish I could take your tears and replace them with laughter, Long live Palestine, Long live Gaza, This is not just a war over stolen land, Why do you think little boys are throwing stones at tanks? We will never really know how many people are dead, They drop bombs on little girls while they sleep in their beds, Don't get offended by facts, just try and listen, Nothing is more anti-Semitic than Zionism, So please don't bring bad vibes when you speak to me, I know there's plenty of Rabbi's that agree with me, It's your choice what you do with this message, Don't get it confused; I view this from a truly human perspective, How many more resolutions have to be violated, How many more children have to be annihilated Israel is a terror state, there terrorists that terrorise, I testify, my television televised them telling lies, This is not a war, it is systematic genocide, But whatever they try, Palestine will never die! 

Directly taken from the hacker web. click [2]

To cope with the news [3]

Another Anonymous web here [4]

10 000 hackers within anonymous (in sum);

20 000 akaun facebook berjaya digodam.

5 000 akaun twitter berjaya digodam.

30 000 akaun bank di Bank Israel berjaya digodam.

Website bursa saham berjaya digodam.

Website mossad berjaya digodam.

Website kementerian pendidikan berjaya digodam.

Website keselamatan dan perisikan israel berjaya digodam.

dan lebih 400 website israel yang lain berjaya digodam.

But the current up-to-date major list of israel websites hacked is here. [5]
In plain english [6]
(I am quite please to see most of their websites are defaced and LOTS are shut down today lol)

Its clear im rooting the Anonymous. We are legion. Pehh. But I dont know what source to rely on really. Since the news are pretty different from where your sources are, we shall see what is really happening soon. For the sake of humanity and everything else im pro palestine!

Man you can sense Im flooding with so many emotions. Sesetengah kita sibuk kutuk mengutuk sebab politik walaupun sama agama it confused me so much mana baik mana jahat. But wait. who say theres a need to say that mana yang jahat ya allah who are we to judge n say such things .......... but man, i dont care about that really..........

In the meantime can we stop for a minute.

And consider everything that we did.

Wake up people! If you think you are against this oppresor, why would we act like one. Do things that make senses! Im rooting it for a good cause! If your intention is based on jihad then its all a fight really worth for! This fight is real! ALL WE WANT IS PEACE.

Allah bless these Anonymous for all this good deeds!!!!!  Allah Hafeez!! Palestine will be free!
Spread the news.

Our fellow Palestinians, we will be with you. No matter how dark it may seem, no matter how alone and abandoned you may feel - know that tens of thousands of us in Anonymous are with you and working tirelessly around the clock to bring you every aid and assistance that we can.

to whoever

In the world I'm living, when two people start to know to each other, they officially become friends. And when the friend stays in your heart you start to believe this is your bestfriend.

But when one walk out from your life, the term seems invalid. The moment someone you know become someone you knew, its really sad that we had to pretend we dont have a heart, as so not to feel it broken. The thing no one ever answered is why.. So I guess you were one of the people who supposed to walk in, teach me a lesson and walk out. Yes I do remember the 'nobody really cares if you are miserable, so you might as well be happy?' haha.

*since i dont meet ur requirement anymore, what is your definition of friend. really.

Bukan sebarang pen!

This post have nothing to do with my blog url! But both dakwat in this pens are awesome. They come out last year. I think this pen really ah mazing. well, I think who doesnt?

Everyone know wacom is the genius when it comes to digital painting but I'm still really really impressed with Inkling, even now. Apart from you can draw just in anywhere you like, it got layers function. Okay man its so awesome how can I didnt blog this before haha. Check it out! Check it out! I mean it. Check it out. 

And this ( I'm not so keen about buying this personally because I cant draw 3ds haha ) I didnt doubt its awesomeness though! 3Doodler allows people create 3D sketches! Imagining that seems impossible but wallaaaaah. One of the coolest things ive ever seen. I may sound crazy but do check out the video.

Thats it. Proceed to their websites to buy it. And tell me if you got one. T_T

Introducing Google Nose

Well, what else can I say. Apart from its awesome, ROFL!

The world needs more creative people. Check out google nose.

hot air balloons in putrajaya

Though the fiesta is annually held, I think this year punya iklan wasn't that gempak enough. Well okay practically we came to watch the hot air balloons rise but since we came around 8 (I forgot to use the physics) which means we were late, so we ended up seeing various types of balloons. Like kids cartoons balloons, and the giant bubbles har har har. The moment we came the real balloons already flew far away from reach, but not to mention we did catch a glimpse of a few. But seriously its only really a few sadly, much lesser than last year though, I think. 

So if you wonder how does hot air balloon works I can tell you a bit here because apparently I did learnt it through physics some times ago haha. Its amazing that they dont have engine yet they could really fly! 

Well the balloon rises because, apparently it is hot air balloon. 

How does it become hot? Via the flame from the burner obviously. So that makes it contains hotter air than the surrounding air. And hotter air rises faster than cooler air. Because hot air is lighter than cool air sebab less mass per volume dia. Yang badan belon ni orang panggil envelope. Thats why the envelope size is so obese since she need to give birth to so many heated babies so, they all as a big family can lift the balloons altogether! Haha apa punya bahasa ni. (As the day getting hotter, this explains why almost all the balloons gone by the time we arrived at 0800H ) The hot air needs to be propelled upwards obviously, so thank god the burner is there. Burner tu semestinya ada control dia. And its a matter of buoyancy. If you wanna go up so provide more heat, kalau nak ke bawah bebaskan udara tu, sepatutnya real hot air balloon ada valve kat atas balloon tu nak kasi udara keluar, but I couldnt find the valve in the balloons in my photo. Kalau nak ke atas ke bawah memang boleh kawal, tapi kalau arah kanan kiri tu kena ikut arah angin. Ni yang kena kemahiran betul. And since you cant really predict the air (can you!?), there should be a co-pilot yang dekat darat sebagai langkah berjaga-jaga. Anyway thats it. I totaly cant recall whats the name of the principle involved though. Nilah bukti study sebab exam haha. 

Anyway since child I really wanna ride in there because of Martini and the hot air balloons. If you read Martini, its a great story book for children with really really beautiful illustrations. Even now I can still remember the pictures from the books. I wanna feel to be in it for real, some days later.  Not just hanging a few feets up in the air, but really soaring in the air through miles in the balloon. pergh.